Ain't Love Grand

This has been a good weekend and a terrible weekend. The good first.

My oldest son and his family (5 kids) came to visit me. It was nice to finally have all of them here. He and the baby have been to see me, but not his wife and the other kids. It is so refreshing to have some young blood in my house once in awhile. The kids fixed burgers, baked cookies and had an overall good time, I THINK.

Now the bad. I think my boyfriend and I broke up. We have been talking about me moving in with him when this school year is over, but I don't know if that is really the best thing for me to do. Sometimes I feel like I am just a convenience for him and when he is busy with other things, I am at the bottom of the list. Maybe it is just my insecurity. I sure don't have the best track record with men and this is probably carry over from some of that.

Back to class tomorrow but it will be a short week because we are having field day Friday. One less lesson plan, yea.

The weather is absolutely beautiful. It is so cool for this time of year but I am loving it. Feels like Mother Nature is letting us know we aren't quite to summer.

Is it Summer Yet?

I feel like I am completely spent. I have worked so hard this year trying to teach, go to school and drive a school bus. The driving just has to go. It feels like my energy has just been sucked out of me. I need to learn how to stiffen by back and say "No." Everytime they call from the bus garage they make it sound like a life and death emergency and I just say no. It seems like I can't get away from school early enough to even get some groceries or go to the bank. There is always something.

It is so utterly frustrating to me to try to teach these students something and, to not only have them not care, tell me they don't care and don't feel like doing anything. I am just having such a difficult time wrapping myself around their attitudes about school and adults. I just wonder what their home life must be like and what they are taught at home. I guess their lying and disrespect bothers me the most. It is so unfair to the decent students to spend so much time trying to keep the disruptive ones in line. Maybe I would have done better at this if I had started much younger. Oh well, about about 23 school days left. Maybe I can hold out.

What a great Weekend!

I spent the weekend at my boyfriend's with him and his son. We worked on the barn and around the yard. There is so much for a city girl to learn about living on a farm, but I have no doubt I am up to the challenge. I had the pleasure of riding up to KY with a friend who was going further and then she picked me up on the way back. It is so nice to have someone to share the ride with. She is planning on going up there again in 2 weeks, so if possible I think I will go with her again.

My oldest son called and said he and his family want to come visit next weekend. This should be interesting, and fun! He plans on bringing all 5 kids. I guess I better come up with something for all of us to do.

Six more weeks and I get my summer vacation. I am counting the days!!

Yea, It's a Refund

Well, I finally got my taxes finished and I am getting a refund - small, but at least it is a refund.

Well, 6 weeks until the end of school. Some days it seems like the day will never get here. The kids seem so distracted; so much is going on at school, besides the fact that spring is here.

I need to start packing for my big move in June, but I just can't seem to get my butt in gear. Packing everything again just seems daunting. I don't know what to pack up to unpack when I get there and what to pack to store for awhile. I need to get some Rubbermaid containers to put stuff in. I hate to store stuff in boxes that the critters can get into.

I planted some bedding plants in the planters on my porch yesterday and I think it really makes it feel like spring. I love the way the flowers change the look of the house. I am planning on going to my boyfriends this weekend and I think we are going to get his flower beds squared away.

Thank goodness for Friday!!

Another Grandson!!

Well, I am expecting another grandson. I just found out yesterday that my youngest son and his partner are expecting a baby boy. I knew they were expecting, but yesterday they had the first sonogram that was able to determine the gender of the baby. They are excited it is a boy because they already have 2 little boys. I am so excited because my first grandson will be 9 months old when this child is born. Their dads are very close so hopefully they will grow up together and also be close.

My prinicipal told me yesterday that he is recommending my contract be renewed. He asked me if I was going to stay and I had to tell him no. I hated telling him because I really appreciate the opportunity he gave me, but I am excited to finally have it out in the open and be able to openly plan for the new chapter in my life. I am going to move to KY (near Louisville) and hopefully I will be able to find an engineering job. If not, I can always get back in a truck. Not my first choice, but I will do what I have to. I know the Lord has a plan for me so I will just go with whatever comes my way and (try to) be happy about it. I bought Joel Osteen's new book a few weeks ago and finished reading it. I think the book was written for me. It has helped my outlook on my life so much. I need to read it again, though, because I think I can get so much more out of it.

I am excited about moving to KY. I am looking forward to living on the farm. This will be quite a change for me, especially since I have been a city girl for most of my life. What an opportunity for growth. I would love to get all the grandkids up there so they can actually see a farm, barn, tractor, cows, etc. They have all been raised in the city, also, and I think they would like it.

I am taking the girls softball team on a trip tomorrow. It should be fun. We are going to watch a college softball game.