Is it Summer Yet?

I feel like I am completely spent. I have worked so hard this year trying to teach, go to school and drive a school bus. The driving just has to go. It feels like my energy has just been sucked out of me. I need to learn how to stiffen by back and say "No." Everytime they call from the bus garage they make it sound like a life and death emergency and I just say no. It seems like I can't get away from school early enough to even get some groceries or go to the bank. There is always something.

It is so utterly frustrating to me to try to teach these students something and, to not only have them not care, tell me they don't care and don't feel like doing anything. I am just having such a difficult time wrapping myself around their attitudes about school and adults. I just wonder what their home life must be like and what they are taught at home. I guess their lying and disrespect bothers me the most. It is so unfair to the decent students to spend so much time trying to keep the disruptive ones in line. Maybe I would have done better at this if I had started much younger. Oh well, about about 23 school days left. Maybe I can hold out.