Back to Work Tomorrow

I've had a great weekend. My youngest son and his family came to visit over the weekend. It is so much more enjoyable to spend holidays like Easter with children. The boys enjoyed venturing into the woods behind my house and exploring. They go back to school tomorrow after a 2 week spring break - lucky them - twice as long as mine.

While I was on a field trip during my spring break I bought Joel Osteen's new book. It seems like everytime I watch him on TV he is saying something directly to me. This book has been so good, so far. It is really what I need right now. Hopefully it will help me through everything I am going through right now.

Tomorrow I start a new chore. I am going to supervise the concession stand for our girls' softball team. I have really tried to be a part of the school and the community, although I really should do a little more in the community. It seems like between teaching, on-line classes and traveling to see my family and boy friend, I don't have as much time as I would like for community involvement. I guess participate in what you feel is most important, so I guess that says something about me.

It will be a great day tomorrow and better one the next day!

Happy Easter

I am looking forward to a great weekend. My youngest son and his family is coming to visit me tomorrow. He hasn't been to see me since I moved. It will be nice to show him my new home and the community I now live in. They are expecting a baby in August, so I will be a grandmother for the 2nd time. Both of my boys have turned into wonderful young men. There were times when I had doubts about the way their lives were going, but they both have become young men I am proud of. We don't always see eye to eye, but I know without a doubt they love me and appreciate all that I have tried to do for them. It sure makes all the tough time, mostly when they were teens, worth it. I pray that both of my boys get the same pleasure from their children that I have gotten from them.

I have had a blessing in my life this week and I thank the Lord for it. I have had such a rough year and I hope this is a sign that things are on the upswing. I have thought that before and been mistaken, but I'm not going to give up that it will happen soon.

Tomorrow should be an easy day at school. A lot of our students are going to be out for Good Friday and the school is planning some free time. It should be a fun. I have been so fortunate to be able to work with the wonderful teachers I do and make some wonderful friends while here.

Happy Easter - may the Easter bunny fill your basket with goodies.

Back To School Tomorrow

Well, I went to see the attorney Friday and found out that if I file for bankruptcy I will have to renege on a deal I made with one of my employees. He has been a God send to me and I just couldn't do that to him. I told the attorney to just forget it and left the office. I will find some other way out of this mess. I know that I couldn't look at myself in the mirror the next day if I had done that. Oh well, so much for that idea. I don't know why the Lord is testing me like this. the last 18 months have been some of the toughtest of my life. I know the Lord has a plan for me, I just need to have the patience to accept His timetable.

My boyfriend and his kids came to visit this weekend. I am just so not sure about where this relationship is going. Sometimes I feel so good about it and other times I feel like I am into this relationship so much more than he is. I think part of it is that I am wearing my feelings on my sleeve. Between that and the career change, I feel my life is upside down. I hope that means it can only go up from here.

Back to school tomorrow after spring break. I sure wish I had been able to relax more and had a little more time. Nine more weeks and our summer break will be here. It won't be soon enough.

Yea(?) It's Spring Break

I got to spend most of my spring break with a group of students that went to a state competition. I don't know how much rest I got but I sure was happy to get home.

I wish my ex-husband would leave me alone and quit trying to make me more miserable than he already has. I feel SOOO stupid. I have always heard about women that get taken by some man that just takes all their money and leaves them in financial ruin. I couldn't understand it and yet, here I am!! I have to go see a bankruptcy attorney Friday. I have just been so distraught. I have worked so hard and been so fiscally responsible for so many years; and then have a man come into my life for such a short period of time and totally ruin me. My innocence is gone and I am going to hate it now - always looking for the worst in a man. I hate it that a good man may have to be under my constant scrutiny because of the way some jerk treated me. I am trying so hard to get through all this without loosing my sanity, but I know that through the grace of God I WILL MAKE IT.

Yesterday would have been my brother's 54th birthday. Happy birthday Big Mike, we miss you!

It's Allergy Season!

A front blew in and I went from OK to blah in about 20 minutes. Yuck. It must be allergies; my eye is watering, I'm sneezing and my nose is congested and running at the same time. It is suppose to snow here tomorrow. Pray for snow. We haven't had a snow day at school this year; I think we are all ready. I know I could use the day off.

I am in for a treat this coming week. I am traveling next week with a school group to a competition. I am so excited because this will be my first trip and it actually has some to do with engineering. Oh to feel like an engineer again.

My boyfriend and I had a rough weekend. We are coming to a crossroads in our relationship. To continue and commit totally to the relationship or call it quits and move on. One of the hard parts of the relationship is that we live almost 300 miles from each other; and with the price of gasoline continuing to creep up it is getting more difficult to see each other as much as we would like. We have both been hurt in past relationships and carry those scars with us. I just hate that. Oh well, time will tell, I guess. He has been such a blessing to my life and I was so lucky to meet him, whatever we decide.

Dec 2004 

Hi

Well, this is not only my first entry, it is the first time I have ever been to a blog site. I am taking an education class and this is one of our assignments. I don't know if anyone will read this besides myself and people in my class but I would like to think I can add to this on a regular basis.

I am currently a high school math teacher in a small town in TN. This is the first year I have ever taught and I am finding it extremely frustrating. I have thought for years that I would make a good teacher and now I am second guessing myself. The students that don't care if they ever learn anything are my challenges. What to do with kids that don't want to pay attention and just want to disrupt the rest of the class. - Oh well, maybe with some more experience I will be able to handle it better.